all my relationships are surface level
i wish for more
i want to explore everyone i meet
i want to understand them
i want to see them from the inside
i want to see what makes them tick
i want to know what it's like to be them
i want to know how they think
i want to see how they work
i want to watch the complicated systems at play whenever they do something
i want to see the nurons that make them move their muscles
i want to see their suffering
i want to see their happiness
i want to see their darkness
i want to see their warmth